And in the process of gaining a sisterhood, I lost myself.

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So being Greek isn't all that it's cracked up to be.

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Every chapter has it's own personality. People will tell you this is not true, they lie. Once you're in, at least for me, there is this pressure to fit into a mold. Smart, pretty, social, the all American girl. You're no longer yourself, you're a _____ (insert greek letters here). These girls are you're support system, so naturally you want to fit in with them. You have meeting with them, class with them, and party with them. Yes I said PARTY. Something you'll never actually get a greek girl to admit to doing to the outside world, but there's a lot of partying. If you don't party (I didn't used to) then that's ok we'll accept you, but it means that you'll be alone on the weekends, because EVERY. ONE. OF. YOUR. SISTERS. WILL. BE OUT. (btw for those who aren't greek "going out" is code for getting drunk (either bar or party). And no one likes to be alone. So you either start to conform, or you don't. I've only ever meet 2 people who didn't conform. It rarely happens. and for those who go to college knowing no one, it NEVER happens. Trust me, I'm living proof.

So when you go greek, what are you willing to give up. Welp, I was desperate for that support group after transferring schools, so I gave up everything. I eat, breathed, and sleept my greek letters. I had a leadership position in my organization, one on Pan. I did as much greek stuff I could. I only hung out with greeks - I had limited friends outside my organization and I didn't care to know anyone else. I had everything I needed within 1 little organization. I had it all. I thought. I was wrong.

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Now I'm paying the price.

Introduction: You have no idea what it's like (being Greek).

I go to a small university now. Its student population (including grad students) is oh about 25,000.  Yes, believe me that's tiny; I would even go as far as saying fishbowl sized. Still not getting it. Ok, think the size of your high school. I don't care how old you are, everyone remember how small their high school felt. Everyone knew everyone, and everyone's nose was so far shoved up each others asses that you couldn't fart without the who school knowing. Yea, that is how small a 25,000 kid school is. That is, if you're Greek.

Yea, yea, yea. So now you have already stereotyped me because I said Greek. You're thinking about all the shows that you've seen on TV or movies about Greek life (ie House Bunny, Animal House ect) and you think you know what it's all about. I assure you, that if that's your only experience with the Greek community, then you have no clue what goes on. And if you're Greek at a large school, I again assure you, that being greek on a small campus is -again- Nothing like being greek on a large campus (I know because I was greek at a large school with over 30 different chapters total - both IFC and NPC; it's a shit ton different).

However, those big campus days are gone, and I'm stuck on a tiny campus with less than 10 NPC organizations. When I say less than 10, I can count them on almost one hand (I won't give the number of the sake of anonymity; you can speculate all you want.)

With there only being X amount of organizations, it makes the campus even smaller. Everyone who's anyone is Greek. And Everyone. Knows. Each. Other. Period. You can't excape it. Once you go Greek, everyone know you and they're all up in your business-wether you like it or not.

My story begins with me now being a GDI (if you don't know what this is, you're way out of touch and google it.) I was affiliated-to an organization which will also not be named- until um... wow yesterday. Actually my disaffiliation is waiting to be approved still. Can you believe that, I can't even drop out without approval. Kind fucked up if I do say so myself.

Why did I drop? More to come tomorrow.